balancing...
Is there such thing as balance when you have an infant at home? To say that we have had sleepless nights is probably an understatement. And to say its been tough balancing work, wanting to spend time with Adelina and time as a couple is probably a major understatement as well. I suppose a part of me thought "balancing" would be easy... ha!
The first few weeks at work were tough for many reasons but I figured once we got through the "transition" it would become second nature and we all would fall right into a routine of wakeups, work, home and sleep. I laugh now because as someone said to me just a few days ago... just when you think you have your kids figured out something else changes. It's SO TRUE!
Now, two months back into work its still a struggle on a daily basis. The mornings are always interesting because Adelina still isn't into a morning wake up routine, it seems to be either a super early wake up (like 4 or 5am) OR we have to wake her up to get her going... it would be nice if there was some sort of middle ground but oh well. I have to admit that while mornings are always interesting with trying to figure out how we are all going to get ready and get out of the house, its also one of our favorite times of day. The minute Adelina starts to wake up both Brent and I rush to get into her room first *yes we race*. She will look left and right until she focuses in on us and then we get the most beautiful smile from her, she gets so excited to see us in the morning... it literally brings tears to my eyes writing about it. Typically its one of her happiest times of the day and that means more smiles, a few giggles and these days more and more sounds!
The day times (during the work week) typically fly by and yet half the time I feel like I never get enough accomplished and there aren't enough hours in the work day. Whether thats because I suck at time management these days, I am day dreaming or maybe I am just that busy I am not sure. Regardless after we get Adelina down for the day I have been logging on to get more work done on a relatively regular basis. Which means, of course, that I get less and less time with my hubby. Luckily I think he understands but it puts me in a situation where I really need to work on my time management skills because I swear I never brought work home as much as I do now. In addition the last thing I want is for my team to think I am not putting in the same effort as before because when push comes to shove I want to continue to grow my career and move forward within the company. I suppose I need to realize that I can't do everything but I truly do feel like there is some improvement that can happen on my part during the work day. So, thats my big to do for the next few weeks... focus, work hard, and then come home without work so I can enjoy my family. I'll let you all know how that goes!